The Shadow and the Shimmer

Life is busy. Sometimes hard. And we can sometimes fall into periods where we get down on ourselves for not doing enough, not being enough, not having enough etc; Whether it's money, time, chores or physical appearance, we can be really, really self-critical. Our inner judge (the ego) can make us feel like we're just not doing a good enough job...of anything. Add in a society that tells us that we have to look a certain way, be perfect parents, work hard and succeed in the labour force, and you have a perfect storm. You meet friends to catch up, and spend most of the time complaining about what isn't going right. You gossip about others. You feed the bad feelings/emotions and thoughts with more negativity, and eventually you have a pretty unhappy reality going on. So- what if I told you that you can break the cycle?! Changing our thoughts isn't an easy task, but it can be done, one small step at a time. Becoming more mindful can literally change your life.

Well, it was actually two under one for 9 days! Having two babies within 12 months has been totally insane and ALL worth it. Sitting here, while both babies nap and I have my first "quiet hour" of the day, I still can't believe that we did this haha Two years ago, around this time, I was planning our wedding, getting things in order for my move to Switzerland and babies weren't even on my mind. I had too much to think about with immigration paperwork and getting rid of my apartment and furniture. I've said it before, and I'll say it again: life delivers. So how is life with two demanding little babs who are both going through completely different phases? It's great. Honestly, I feel like people almost expect to hear you complain about "how hard it is" or how tired you are, or how you need a break (or a glass of wine, ugh haha) when you talk about having two young children.  What about celebrating when you feel good? I'm not sayin