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Fall Update

Fall is here, and once again, I feel like I've neglected S+S for far too long!

When you have toddlers, it's really true what they say, 'the days are long but the years fly by.'

Here are a few things I've been up to:

*Some freelance writing/but mostly free-writing/new poems. 

I'm still submitting a few articles to www.TheRichest.com, but I don't always feel like it, to be honest! Doing freelance work is great, because it's structured (and paid haha) but I am feeling like I am really in the season of creative writing.

Lately, I've been keeping an anxiety journal/tracker, to take note of when I feel crappy. Writing out the feelings also helps me to be less hard on myself when I don't see progress. Or when I am progressing but not 'fast enough' for my likings.

Also keeping a dream journal again. I've always had such intense dreams. Signs. Symbols. Detailed conversations. It's kind of cool. I sometimes feel like my dream life makes more sense than my waking life. I like spending time in the depths of my subconscious. It's kind of a fun place (despite what it would have me believe in waking life...)

Here's me in 80's workout gear, just cuz! I looked more alive than normal here. Must be the lighting.


*Toddler Management.

Self-explanatory. Chasing them all over the house/park/streets. Jake's new thing is opening the oven door and standing on it to get to our oil tray. Ugh. Why do they pick the worst games?! Theo is in a phase of running after the dog and trying to scare him by roaring and screaming in his face. 
Naps are hard to come by. 
Teething for Jake. 
Sometimes I look in the mirror and feel like I've aged by 20 years since they were born.
My natural hair colour is like...100% grey now. WTF?
Not age-shaming, but sometimes I'm like...wasn't I just 25?
Not a super restful period. 
But, you know.
This will pass and I will miss it. So. Perspective.
By the time I'm 40, I'll have a 7 year-old and 6 year-old, and will be in my prime MILF years. 
The future is bright.

These guys keep me running around ALL day everyday, but I love them more than anything in the world. <3


*Going Back To Canada!

I'm going back to Canada in 2 weeks, with Jake. I'm going for my cousin's wedding and Thanksgiving. Hoping to have some restful/relaxing moments. I know I'll miss Theo so much and probably cry once a day, but it's good for me to push out of my comfort zone a bit. Otherwise I'm gonna end up being the stage-5-clinger mom, and ain't nobody got time for that. We're watching 13 Reasons Why, and all the moms in that show are so fucking annoying and clingy! I'm  like......am I like that?!?! (yes, but I have time to correct the behaviour before they're older and cool haha)



*Planning Move.

We are moving to our new place on November 15th. So damn excited to be a bit more central and get out of this 'hood. It's not BAD, but it's annoying to be kind of on the outskirts of downtown where everything is easily accessible. I also find there are a lot of murky energetic fields around our place (I always get a weird bad-vibe feeling when I walk under the underpass). Happy to move away from there. New start. Will live on the same street as my hairdresser. 

*Reading A Lot.


I've been reading a lot, in an attempt to catch up to my GoodReads Challenge of 30 books for 2019. I started tracking last month, so now I feel like I need to read a ton to reach my goal by end of year. I'm halfway, roughly.
Reading a lot of fiction novels.
It's a nice break from all the personal development/self-help stuff.
Gotta have a balance!

I was reading under this tree last week on my 'day off' but then just kinda sat there listening to music and feeling half-alive. Motherhood!


Next post will be much more exciting and fun, I'm half-asleep and just felt like I needed to update my many readers (lol) about my situ!


OH! I guess it's totally worth mentioning that at this time last year, I was entering a super shitty period of high anxiety/mild depression/burnout etc....

 Happy to report that I'm actually feeling like this season I'm exiting that phase. It took me a good year of feeling mildly shitty to finally make some major progress, but I have!

 Therapy, writing, new friends, reading, being less hard on myself....all working <3





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